Saturday, June 6, 2009

We are home and adjusting

Thanks to all of you for your encouragement and prayers. The last week has been a whirlwind of emotions and feelings. We have been super blessed with meals, paper goods and other wonderful things, and help by family during the days.
Quickly I will say, because I don't have a lot of time, the kids seem to be doing fairly well right now. Bedtime and eating are a challenge. They both cry at bedtime and although Jesula eats fairly well, Wilkenson is picky. They want snacks a lot! Disciplining is a little bit of a challenge due to the language barrier but I know they will pick up quickly.
My other children are doing great. Noah is a born teacher so he automatically wants to teach them. If you could have only seen his eyes in the car while riding next to Wilkenson. He just kept staring at him. Oh how I would have loved to have gotten into his mind to see what he was thinking. Bella takes very good care of Jesula. Bella, unfortunately, was very sick when we got home so that mixed with some emotion, she had a little bit of a difficult time but is doing much better now. Asher, on the other hand, being the baby, is having some jealousy issues. I am trying to hold and love on him as much as I can.
Will is amazing and I don't know what I would do without him. He is incredible. I am so thankful to have him home for the summer.
I am doing OK but having a hard time grieving what our family will never be again. It is just like post partum depression which has astounded me but thankfully not uncommon. I just realize more and more that I cannot do anything alone. I must have the Lord.